Solemn?

I've been.
Its like I'm miserable.
But I hide it cuz I dont wanna be a depressed mess.
It just annoys people.

There's a pain inside me.
One I wish to dispose of.

Just how can I "be myself"?
The Bishop said I just need to accept myself.
How can I, when I am of this nature...having to hide important aspects of myself to society because....
Because its "unnatural".

It naturally happened to me.

To feel sad due to yourself, because the reason you are sad is the fact of who you are...is the worst.

I was in peppy moods at the beginning of the year.
I am a new person.

But why?

Why did I have to be this way?

This is something I cannot change.